2003-10-23
Jealousy is an incredibly annoying thing. Being depressed is one of those things also. So is anger and irritation. Currently, anger and irritation is bubbling over me. I suppose that if you really love a series as much as you claim, you'd keep up to date with it. I think it's stupid to whine and complain about not knowing what's going on and expect people to just TELL you. I mean, if you want to know then ask. Ask and look around for information. There's plenty of places. But really? I don't think you care as much as you say.

::rubs her head:: My head hurts. I have a whole bunch of work to do because I have to miss Thursday, Friday and Monday for the funeral. I am not feeling overly happy. I'd like to hurt some people, but I won't. I'd like to though.

2003-10-20
I feel the need to go GAAR, but I've been doing that all day and frankly, my throat hurts from doing it so I won't go GAAR anymore. I'd like to say that standing in the cold and pouring rain for nearly an hour and thirty minutes is not a happy thing. Especially when your pants and socks are soaking wet by the time you're done. ESPECIALLY when your underwear is therefore soaked because your pants were and you, of course, don't have an extra pair. The joys of life right?

Well. In addition to all the stress and rage that comes with not being able to avoid getting soaking well, your little brother is a fucking idiot that doesn't know how to make a phone call to tell you that he's staying after school for an extended amount of time to play with his friends. No. Of course not. He would NEVER EVER think to call. Why? BECAUSE HE'S A FUCKING IDIOT THAT HAS NO BRAIN! And by the time you realize exactly where in the school he is, your dad has arrived and has been ranting for the past ten minutes or so about irresponsible children. And then. Your brother tells you that he's staying even longer, no, he won't tell you how long is 'longer', and no, he doesn't know how long, but he'll call. ...Right. Call. Huh. That sounds kinda familiar right?

So then. In addition to all THAT rage, you remember why you were so non-happy this morning. You're going to a funeral. In Hong Kong, which is half-way across the globe. You're going to miss three days of school. Now, a normal child would be perfectly happy about that. But you aren't. Why? Because you'll have to do a lot of catching up and catching up on anything such as school work SUCKS VERY BADLY. And there's also the fact that you'll be missing Halloween. Normally, that wouldn't be so bad. You don't do much that day anyway. But guess what? You have a life these days. You have actual friends and you had plans with them to go do stuff on Halloween. But no. Not now. You get to go to a funeral, half-way across the globe because your mother is paranoid and sad. Said funeral is for your mother's brother, but you're not sad really. Why? Because you get to see him like once in two years. On the other hand, you're mourning the loss of enjoying your next weekend and you wish you could cry because your mother is very sad. She's doing a great job of masking it, but it's obvious at the same time that she's completely not okay.

Joys of life huh?

2003-10-18
Strange things happen every day. Bad things happen. One minute you're talking about what's for dessert tonight and then the next, you're comforting your mom because her brother is dying. The joys of life huh? ::groans:: I just wish people would stop dying. I'm really worried about Mum. My head hurts and I'd really like people to stop dying randomly on my parents.

2003-10-08
Whoo...today was an interesting day. There was a rainbow this morning when we were driving to school. I thought the day would be good since you know, rainbows generally are supposed to be good signs. And so, with that thought, I began on my big history test. I knew most of the problems and so I think I did pretty well. Not great, but I don't ever really do great on tests. I'm terrible at studying and test-taking. ::hopes that she did well::

Then there was math and it was boring. We did worksheets, went over homework and all that. As a note to myself, if I say there's no cute/cool guys at my school, I'm wrong. Brian's pretty cool and he likes manga/anime. He's also opposed to dubs. I like him already. Anyway, then there was community and I'm in an art thing so I got to doodle and draw in my sketchbook. That was joyful. I nearly managed a Yoh.

Then...there was humanities and today is RFTS-day. And since I wrote a long rant on the Shaman King dub, I decided that I was to read it. Why? Well, RFTS is easy points and TJ threatened that if not enough people read, we wouldn't have it anymore so...I read it and it wasn't bad. I got some people to laugh and while most didn't understand what I was saying...it went well and RFTS will live. (At least for now...) And then the bomb dropped on me. We had a pop quiz on some reading we were supposed to do. Only, I forgot about it because I was studying for history test. So, I'm sure I failed the pop quiz.

Perhaps I should learn to keep my mouth shut, but the first thing that came out of me when Dad asked how my day was...I blurted out that I think I failed the pop quiz. This, of course, prompted him into giving me dark looks throughout the ride back home and occasional comments about how I need to get away from the computer and start working harder. Never mind that I do work hard, never mind that I have an actual social life online (as snmall as it is), never mind that he's not in high school anymore and he didn't go to International so he knows NOTHING. Never mind that I didn't get the chance to say how thrilled I was that I actually got up and read my RFTS. Nope. So, my day goes up and down and down some more. ::sighs::

I think that life would be so much easier if Dad wouldn't rant so much and nagged about school work. I like working at my own pace and I'm not a brilliant scholar. I do pretty well, I get mostly B's, some A's and some C's. I think that's good for me. It's not sparkling great, but my enthusiasm for school doesn't go to sparkling great. Despite that, normal standards in my house are A's and everything else is bad. So I know for a fact that whenever Dad goes into rant/hate the world mode next time, I'll have him bringing up that quiz. I KNOW I should keep my mouth shut. I KNOW it. Anything regarding school should be kept under lock and safe because I know I can pull my grade up. Maybe not to an A, but geez, with the way his rant goes, my already low self-esteem will definitely be sent to the drain and flushed out to the ocean. Ugh. I'm just going to go take a nap then study feverishly for my French unit test and softball test tomorrow. I need a break. I'm so thankful for the three-day weekend right now. Please get here soon. Please let me take a breath so I won't jump off a cliff or do something stupid like decide that I don't give a damn and fail every fucking thing that comes up next week. ::goes off to nap::

2003-10-03
::happy since Tutu 21.5 just finished:: :3 La~ Today was a good day despite aching stomach muscles. Ow. Ow. Geez. PE is terrible evil, but it's been awhile since my STOMACH has been sore. X_o; Even worse than that time with Randy's sit-ups...Ugh.

Anyways~ Today! Today! Ms. Mader (Er. Mrs. Wallis(sp?) since she's married now, but...!) came to visit me at the restaurant with Adam. That was really, REALLY cool because I haven't seen in her such a long time. She was busy with wedding planning, her wedding and teaching so...that's why she hadn't been visiting. I had a pretty long talk with her and that was immensely cool too. I think she's one of the few adults that I can actually have a conversation with and not feel like hiding in the nearest closet afterwards. Ah~ I hope she comes visit more often. (Hopefully on weekends since I'm not at the restaurant during the weekdays anymore. x__x;)

Whee~ What else? Um...I like napping. Napping is good for me. Really. I have manga! GB 22, X-day 2, Hikaru no Go 22 and Prince of Tennis 17 and 19, as well as Full Moon 1 in Chinese. FINALLY. :3 I'm quite content. Well. I want the SK 2004 calendar, which should be out sometime next month. Must stalk Kinokuniya then~

>__>; Aww. Mum's yelling for sleep so I'm going to head off. Damn it! I wanna watch Tutu! ;__; I shall have to watch it tomorrow. ::zooms off to bed::

2003-10-03
::happy since Tutu 21.5 just finished:: :3 La~ Today was a good day despite aching stomach muscles. Ow. Ow. Geez. PE is terrible evil, but it's been awhile since my STOMACH has been sore. X_o; Even worse than that time with Randy's sit-ups...Ugh.

Anyways~ Today! Today! Ms. Mader (Er. Mrs. Wallis(sp?) since she's married now, but...!) came to visit me at the restaurant with Adam. That was really, REALLY cool because I haven't seen in her such a long time. She was busy with wedding planning, her wedding and teaching so...that's why she hadn't been visiting. I had a pretty long talk with her and that was immensely cool too. I think she's one of the few adults that I can actually have a conversation with and not feel like hiding in the nearest closet afterwards. Ah~ I hope she comes visit more often. (Hopefully on weekends since I'm not at the restaurant during the weekdays anymore. x__x;)

Whee~ What else? Um...I like napping. Napping is good for me. Really. I have manga! GB 22, X-day 2, Hikaru no Go 22 and Prince of Tennis 17 and 19, as well as Full Moon 1 in Chinese. FINALLY. :3 I'm quite content. Well. I want the SK 2004 calendar, which should be out sometime next month. Must stalk Kinokuniya then~

>__>; Aww. Mum's yelling for sleep so I'm going to head off. Damn it! I wanna watch Tutu! ;__; I shall have to watch it tomorrow. ::zooms off to bed::

2003-09-16
Well. School's started and I'm dead. XD This blog is kinda dead too. I don't think that anyone really comes here and reads any of this anyway. I like LJ, but...um. I haven't blogged there in awhile too. School's extremely exhausting so I haven't been churning out any particularly great writings lately. (Except in humanities, but that's different and not extraordinary fun so...) In any case, if you're reading this, I'm going to stare at you like so: o____O

Now that's over. I'm going to talk about school and the crazy things that happened to me today or possibly yesterday. Whatever comes to mind. And if you're Mandii, you'll have heard this already. Anyway. So today in between periods, during break, I was standing in front of the math room and waiting for class to start. We were supposed to do an assignment over the weekend and write it on a transparency. My group had planned to write it out on Monday since it was due today, but none of us remembered during lunch yesterday. So I decided to do it last night and it wasn't hard anyway. So Amanda, one of the girls in my group, comes up to me, spazzing about it when I tell her I had already done it. She promptly hugs and me declares that she loves me. XD Which is great and makes me happy inside because I did something good and I got hugged for it! After she wanders off, I declare that I like hugs, but I never get any. Millie overhears me and starts waving down people that she knows in the hall to give me hugs. =o__O=; That was embarrassing, but strangely effective. XD I got hugs~ WHOOHOO! I mean it defeats the purpose of hugs since you should get hugs because people want to hug you and not cause someone asked them to, but STILL. XD; Uh. Hugs are good for me???

Second most interesting thing occured during lunch like most interesting things do during the school year. Now lunch at our table is typically fraught with strange discussions and stuff so no need to stare at this and wonder what kind of idiots we are. We're dorky idiots. That's what. XD ANYWAY, Millie had chosen to wear all black today, which prompted some of us to wonder if she was turning goth on us, only teasingly. Hence that somehow prompted a comment about how people would wonder these things if someone was wearing all black, but not if they were wearing all blue. So...when Millie walks over, Carly points at her and says that she's color sexist (...) We pause. I pause. I then comment, "But colors don't have sex!" Now. Of course it was taken literally and we were all laughing after it processed. But what I meant was colors had no GENDER and yah. XD;;; Anyway, Carly then says "But red and yellow makes orange!" ::cries:: So now we have color sex going on.

And that's my nearly pointless entry of the day. :D You know you love it. Wait. Wait. One more thing. Perhaps several. I never realized that on the last track of the second Osorezan CD after Tamashii Kasanete was played that here was an omake thing. Like where all the seiyuu's talk and stuff after the drama itself. XDD So I was wandering blogs and discovered it. I promptly hunted down my CD and listened to it. I'd like to say the best part would be where Yoh's seiyuu cracks up at the beginning because she's unable to get past the first line of what she wrote down to say. XD Well. No. There were SEVERAL great parts in my opinion. Then there was Yoh's intro of Hao which was "And 1000 years Hao," which prompts Hao into saying "Wait, what kind of intro is that? XD" And...OH. HAO. So his seiyuu introduces herself and Opacho goes "I like Hao-sama~" And his seiyuu goes into her Hao voice and replies "I love you too Opacho~~~" ::cries:: It was great because it was Hao's voice for like two seconds. Oh shut up. I'm too much of a fangirl for my own good, but HAO. XD ARGH. It almost doesn't matter that he's saying he loves Opacho, but it's cute and teasing so great. <3 <3 <3 And there was something else, but I'm too lazy to remember. Oh well. XD I'm done now. Really. Truly.

...Okay. One more thing. I want more Hao. e.e; Wai. Hao~ Hao~

Okay. XD Done now. ::runs off to bed after a pointless and stupid entry::

2003-09-01
Whoo~ Today was a tiring, but nearly perfect day. I'm ready to fall into bed and sleep, but I have that itchy feeling to write and I suppose I should before I forget about the little details that sleep tends to dull.

So! Today, Ashley and I went to Bumbershoot to watch Evanescence play, but there was a great deal of ups and downs before that. (Well...not a GREAT deal, it sounds better that way! XO) First, she came over to the restaurant and we had lunch before heading over to the Seattle Center to ride the Monorail to Westlake Center. Once we got there, we headed straight towards the bookstore for manga. (The bookstore there has a surprisingly large collection as we discovered previously.) Which is why I now own Demon Diary 3, FLCL 1 and Marmalade Boy 8. I had wanted to buy Demon Diary previously on Thursday when we went to Kinokuniya, but after getting various manga such as Dragon Knights 9, Mars 13-14, GetBackers Manjien-type book and the DN Angel artbook (along with various purchases at Anime Kingdom) my money ran out so...I didn't get it. But I have it now.

Then we dropped by the anime store at the basement of Westlake, where we discovered SK posters, the first figurine set as well as some pins. Since we were going to see Freaky Friday, we decided to come back after it to buy things. Ashley wanted to stop at Hot Topic to buy armwarmers anyway. (That turned out to be a bad decision by the way.)

Freaky Friday was very fun and sappy. I nearly cried and thus that caused me a huge headache after the movie. It was good though, I really liked it! I felt immensely sorry for Jake though because it must have been crazy for him to fall in love with Anna and then fall in love with her mom, but not realize that Anna was in her mom's body. >_o; He's cute though and sweet...::hearts::

After the movie, we went back to Westlake only to discover that it had closed. ::wails:: Pins! Figurines! Hot Topic! The HORROR of it all! That was incredibly disappointing, but we got back on the Monorail and decided to go check out the Bumbershoot. Unfortunately, when we got there we discovered to our dismay that we needed to have gotten free wristbands to go see the Cold/Evanescence show. Of course, they had run out of wristbands. Since our whole purpose of going to Bumbershoot was to see Evanescence, it was understandably shocking and terrible. Thus, we walked around Bumbershoot, glancing at booths with disinterest and whined about wristbands. At some point, I got the idea to stake out at one of the wristband stands and see if anyone would be returning theirs. There were a LOT of people with wristbands and I somehow doubted that people above the age of 50 would be needing them. (Why they had them in the first place was an inquiry I would have liked to make.) Thuuuss, we went back to the first wristband stand where we heard the lady talking to another unfortunate pair about staking out at the exits and asking, EXTREMELY POLITELY OR ELSE, people for their wristbands. So...we headed towards the nearest exit.

Before we made it to the exit though, I spied several people tugging at their yellow wristbands in motions that suggested they were taking them off. Being that we needed said wristbands, I immediately headed over and hovered about the group. Apparently, they were giving their wristbands to some others there. A lady with the group noticed by hovering and quiet "Um...um...excuse me...um..." and asked if I needed a wristband. Of course, I nodded empathically and got a wristband. We were still missing one for Ashley. However, the boys with the lady had extras and graciously handed one over. We thanked them profusely (I promise to worship them even though they don't know this and I don't really remember what they look like anyway...) and thus, we had wristbands. Which made everything better.

At this point, we decided to head over to the stadium for the show. It was crowded and since we got our wristbands later than most, the best seats were already taken. So we stood and hung near front-back-ish to watch. We waited for Cold to finish up and then Evanescence was on! ::heartsparkle:: They were really good and uh...apparently, Seattle started playing their songs half a year (or was it three months? I forget. Half of SOMETHING) before every other station caught up. Thus, they thanked Seattle and played songs! WHHOOOO! Some songs I hadn't heard and I wish I could find out what the names were...It was difficult to hear over the noise and crowd. Not to mention difficult to SEE. We're short and hanging near the back while the tall people were in the front. Some people placed others upon their shoulders which made things worse. Bah to them! But it was very fun! My first concert. XD Hee. Definitely memorable. ::stores wristband::

Now I am extremely tired so I shall collapse into a puddle of useless goo. Apologies to anyone who IMed me today and got no response. I suppose I should have just killed AIM before I left. ::was too lazy::

2003-08-25
I never seem to blog in this blog anymore. ::sweatdrops:: I guess my LJ is eating my soul. Not that I update that too much either...just with random pieces of writing, but the friends page is fun. :D I don't have to click on links and more links or need to remember links to get to a friend's blog. ...Except that I don't dare to friend the people's blog that I really like or read the LJ daily anyway. ::sweatdrops:: I'm such a coward.

In other news, school starts in a week and I haven't finished my math packet, started my essay and haven't even read the other book yet. The impending sense of doom rises steadily. >_>; Well. The OTHER sense of impending doom besides leaping into a gaping hole that will devour my soul. I'd like to say again how much I hate math. That's another thing that devours a person's soul and it is also cruel and evil. ::grimaces::

Oh well~ I'll write more once school starts. (I think) Because then I'll have more to talk about besides writing, new fandoms, RPs and such. ...No wait. That's what I always write about anyway. :D Oh well. Too bad!

2003-08-06
Geez. XD I'm not even sure why I have this blog these days. I haven't updated in awhile. Apologies. :D; Thanks boiya-san for commenting~ XD Crysi-sama told me all about it. I hope she takes many pictures so I can see your Hao costume. :D

Let's see~ Aha! I went to Kristen's birthday party on Monday. That was fun. X3 I missed my friends at school. We had dinner (she especially made vegetarian lasana (sp?) for me. ;_; ::sniffles happily::) and salad and some breadsticks. Then there was cake and ice cream. (*__* Caakkkee~) Then we made salt water taffy except it's more like kool-aid taffy. XDD The water kept boiling over and the stove caught on fire for a bit. While Kristen struggled to get the water to the right temperature, but not boil over...we, as in Millie and Nina along with Kristen's two younger sisters read her letters to Nina. Said letters were long winded and detailed what happened on her trip to Washington D.C. and most of the east coast. ::snirks:: After that, we were given extremely hot taffy to pull because it needs to be pulled to harden. That was fun. @_o; Except that it's almost work. ::gnaws on a taffy piece:: Then we opened presents and watched Sleeping Beauty. I caught the first part before having to leave. Ah well~ :3 Sleeping Beauty is such a slut though. ::killed:: It's TRUE. >_>;

And now...I'm packing for my trip to Hong Kong. :D That's right, I'm leaving today and going there for a week. I probably won't be on until the 14th since we come back at 11:30 PM on the 13th. XD I can't wait. There's a Comic Festival going on during the time I'm there so I should be able to stock up on manga. Hopefully Hong Kong anime DVDs as well...XD ::runs off to pack::

2003-07-28
Whoo. Haven't felt like updating this blog. Sorry to anyone who missed my ramblings, but it's summer and there's not much to blog about. Well. I guess I can talk about how I tripped down the stairs of a bookstore and hurt my foot. :D Which caused it to be swollen, thereby causing me much pain and limping. Then today, I was taking a bowl out of the microwave and burnt my thumb because it was hotter than I thought. I wonder what's up with me lately. @_o; I'm usually not this clumsy. Must be the summer heat and boredom that's melting my brain and reflexes. Kyyaa.

Hmm...I haven't been doing much lately, just writing (And again, my fic blog is here just in case anyone really wanted to know) and RPing. I need something to do. Something to waste energy on. Too much energy and not enough places to waste it on is making me depressed. ::sighs::

On the somewhat plus side, Mum is still considering a week in Hong Kong sometime in August. I'm looking forward to that. I can handle bugs and cold showers if I can see Grandma and buy manga. ::wistfully:: It's something to do anyway. And that's it. :D I can't think of anything else to say~ Whee! ::runs off::

2003-07-11
o_O Dude. There's Krad and Dark's image songs on the DN Angel ML. I like Dark's song. I have no idea why. XD Krad's is weird, it has weird screechy noises. I like it too, only less because screechy noises hurt my head.

That aside~ I went to Ashley's house today. We went to go see The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen. I liked it. The special effects were fun even if the plot was Eh-ish. It wasn't terrible though. :D Which reminds me that I saw Samuel there. O_O We walked into the theater and he was walking out. ::hearts:: He was leaving today for France at 6:45. ;_; :D I found out that he's twenty years old though and...e.e his hair's not blue anymore. But STILL. Samuel~ ::heart:: ...Erk. >.>

ANYWAY...Then we went off to Anime Kingdom, where I spent money (::grimaces::) and acted like a dork. I'm very good at that though. ::thumbs up:: My brain was broken several times, but it usually gets broken at AK a lot. I LIKE the people we meet there. Most are really unique and they don't mind talking to you. ...Even if you squeal, hop up and down and sparkle all over, it's still "acceptable". Er. Usually. Anyway~ I remembered to buy Checkers a b-day gift. Bought a DVD, don't know what it's called in English, but the art looks like it's the same as the author of Saiyuki. :D So all's good. Then Demon Diary 2. <3 ::heartheart::

That sums up my day. I'm tired and I feel like I should feel terrible. Unfortunately or fortunately, I've gotten over it. Numbness is probably a good thing these days. I fail so many people, but at least...I don't feel as if I care anymore. Not a good thing I guess, but...::laughs:: I don't care anymore.

2003-07-08
::pokes at her legs:: Today has been filled with pain. x_e; There was physical pain, emotional pain and fangirl pain. T_T; It makes me feel so happy. So this morning, my parents went to their acupucture appointment. That meant waking up at 7:00 in the morning after going to sleep at 1:00. ::sobs:: Unholy hours. I didn't get poked at with needles, but I was poked at. In fact, where the doctor lady poked at me with her fingers (ie: the spot above my ankle) HURTS. Ow. o_O; I do get to be poked at with needles next time though. She told me by immune system was weak and I was having bloody noses cause of...something. She rambles. It was scary. X_X; Then the thingy with Mum this afternoon. e_e I find that I have lot's of energy when I'm angry. I practice piano non-stop for more than an hour. After that, I played DDR until my legs began to hurt. :D They hurt NOW too. Ow. Then there was random fangirl pain, which meant that my brain being broken. Several times. :D OH. And random character deaths! Hiroyuki Takei is a cruel god. ::sigh::

And...I wrote some more of Hao fic. NOT Falling in Darkness, if anyone wants to read go to my fic blog, which is located here. Why anyone would WANT to read it is a good question. o_O; ...T_T; Writing fics and stuffing it down people's throat should be a THREAT. Why do I have willing victims?! It completely ruins the point of it! ::dies::

2003-07-08
I hate comparing myself to other people. I hate it. I know that everyone's different and you really can't compare someone's ability to do something to someone else's. I wish that I could stop doing it to myself because I end up getting mad at myself for it. The problem is, how can -I- stop doing it if I'm constantly reminded of being compared to others. I wish Mum would SHUT UP sometimes. I don't want to know about the young child who invented something. I don't want to know about that genius pianist. I'm NOT them. I won't be no matter how many times you tell me. I'm sorry if I mess up. I'm sorry if I'm lazy. I'm sorry if I'm not good enough. Why can't I be good enough that she'd just leave me alone? I'm so tired of it. It's summer. I want to rest. You keep telling me that I should be taking classes, I wanted to. I couldn't FIND any. ::cries::

2003-07-06
::yawns:: I want to sleep. e_e; Muummm~ Let me sleep. I have absolutely nothing to blog about except that I'm trying to decide whether to cosplay as Silva, Patch!Hao or Lilirara for Sakuracon. I'm definitely going as Current!Hao (after I remake his costume and screech over Hao lego blocks some more), but I don't just want to be him. ToT;

I'm tempted to find pictures of Alexiel from Angel Sanctuary and look at her costume. That's mainly because I randomly starting reading vol. 14 of Angel Sanctuary and now I've reread all the way up to 19. That reminds me that I still desperately need 20. ARGH. The ENDING!...But yes. Alexiel's very cool. She kicks ass and she angsts. *_*; :D And I learned that if you spell evil backwards it spells live. I forget what's so special about that in the manga though. Go read Angel Sanctuary! It has pretty art, complicated relationships and blood!

2003-07-02
Hah...I wish I could type in Chinese sometimes. My brain is on Chinese mode and I keep thinking in Chinese. Translating your own thoughts is odd. ::laughs:: I feel so odd right now. Kristen called me earlier today and I felt really happy. She's leaving for Washington D.C. tomorrow and will be gone all of July. She called me for the sole reason of telling me how happy she was and then she goes on to ramble about her birthday party in August. It felt really good to just ramble about nothing with her.

Sometimes I feel very guilty because I can't think of any of the friends I've made at International as my friend friends. But despite that, it's so much easier to forget things and just enjoy being in their presence. They know I'm odd. They know I'm anime/manga crazy and they know my flaws really well. And they still don't mind. I guess that's what I miss most about school. It's the fact that I can just go to school and know for sure that someone will talk to me. I don't have to be really smart. I don't have to say amusing things. I just have to be. And that's enough.

I mean I always feel like an idiot when I'm talking with Kristen and Millie about math or physics. I always feel like a complete dork when I'm talking to Angie. I want to whack Rachel on the head because Meatball is NOT better than Hao in any way. But it's so much fun to tease Kristen for being too good for her own...good and Millie's perfect writing and scores in math. Laughing with Angie over something Samuel did. Arguing with Rachel whether Hao or Meatball is better. And I MISS that. ::snirks:: Certainly, I don't miss homework and waking up at unholy hours of the morning. ::shudders:: But STILL.

The difference between school and online is that, I always feel the need to say something profound. I feel like I need to be someone special, do something unique and I keep comparing myself to people. Which sucks naturally since I'm not that great and I can't always think of something to say. I'm scared of silences. There's so many silences here. There's people who understand me a lot better, but when everything is said and done, what else is there? If I'm silent, Kristen or someone else is perfectly happy to ramble at me. There's always something going on. Something that I can do. Something that I'm needed for....e_e I miss school so much right now.

2003-07-01
::falls down:: Ow. Pain. I can't feel my legs. DDR can be so painful. Piano lessons are still evil. Actually, I think most of the world is evil. Whee~ ::gnaws on a grape:: :D I really have nothing to blog about, but I figure I should. It'd be odd if I just left Yami's entry up. XD Sankyuu for archiving for me Yami!

I think I'm an idiot as per usual. If I can't find a place that teaches sewing, why don't I just go to the bookstore and buy a book on sewing? X_x; ::sweatdrops:: Oh well. >_>; Um. Demon Diary rocks and so does Petshop of Horrors. Along with Nana. Nana rules too. ::must find more manga...zooms off::

2003-06-29
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